Speechless:GermanyEnglish PoemMeine Welt kann so kalt sein.
In dein Herz regnet aber in meins ist sonnenschein.
Traurig ist mein eben bild.Heftig mein trauer.
Ich vermisse dich...!
>>My world can be sometimes so cold.
In your heart is rainning,
but in mine is the sun shinning.
Sad is my image in the mirror,
Violently my sadness.
I miss you... >If my voice can reach you,
then listen to me and come to me,
'cause I need you here so badly!
Love and Trust: Hika Part 9Chapter 9: Ocean
Somehow I am not really here. Make some things around my own clear. I show the others how I am. This is my life. I life my live like I want. Not you want me to. Let me make it clear. I am not a animal. Not your little doll. I look into the mirror. Everything is ready. Tonight I am going to break you. I am coming! Go and hide yourself.
"Bring it on! Lets start! We have our own pride! We are not like east, west, north or south! Ready?" "YEAH!" We are a gang. Berlins nightmare since years. Ciel is our front man. Right next to him is Tears. Then Nali and I am a special guest. If you understand what I mean.
"Ready to go Hika?" Tears hug me. He is my best friend after all. Not only my husband. "Lets go" I smile. Then we jump. From here to there. We go to paint your nightmare down. Be sure!
Love and Trust: Hika Part 8Chapter 8: Melody
[From Ciel view]
During talking with the boys from OB gang, which means ost Berlin (the east of Berlin), the NB, Nord Berlin (the north of Berlin), comes and hit some bottles. I quite smoking and take a look at those who make such a noise. 3 girls half naked and 3 boys. All ugly. That Berlin, you know. "Hey dude. Who you think you are?"
I am clam. I am always like this. The girls come around me. I turn around and see: I am all alone. I am still naive. This was a trick. The boys hit. One here one there. I don't want to hurt anyone. But you know. Everyone has a pride. And my pride is to stay at the tope and save it! BAM! Now are the girls lying down? "Hey Dude! Who you think you are? That my boy." A sweet smile of a sweet little girl. That girl is so bright. Even as brighter as the moon is. This little girl is Nali. And this little girl is just like my other little girl. Where ever you are Hika, I hope the moon shows you the way. I smile. Nali looks at me. We both
Love and Trust: Hika Part 7Chapter 7: Sweet
How do you think is the best way to show someone you love him?
I think the best thing is to say it. No matter how hard is it? I want to tell you how much I like you. But I am thinking of how I should tell you that.
Again I am running. Running trough the streets. I am wearing a short dress. With lots of buttons. A cap with headphones. My iPod is green. I am not wearing shoes. I am running. The short dress is white black. Is turned a little. The yellow cross-hatched side is turned. I love cross-hatched. Is sweet. Like I said I am running. Listing to some different music. Is good that is not raining. The moon is smiling at me. It's bright and happy. May I show you the way? It asks me. Sure. It's an honor. I answered a smile. It's now even more brighter. In my eyes. No matter if the person you love loves you too or not. That you jump over your own shadow and habit to ask him counts more.
Love and Trust: Hika Part 6Chapter 6: Killer
With 17 everything starts. I killed my mom and kissed the lord of darkness' hands. Why did I do that? Because I thought I was not strong enough. I could not hide myself from that mask. I knew he would come and catch me. I wanted to run away but I couldn't because I had to be a good girl.
My mother was strong. My dad died a year before her. He died because he killed someone who I loved so much. Ciel was dead. At my 16 birthday I lost my best friend. No one told me that. But..."I know who killed him." Tears was next to me. He held me in his arms and gave me a kind of sweet-love, or what ever you would like to call it. He liked the feeling of saving me. Of loving me. "Who?"
"Because he wanted to save you.","HAHA!"
Save? SAVE? Who did he want to save? Me? I am not the one...- No. I ran off. Climbed and jumped. Ran and killed the man who killed my best friend.
"NO! Hika, NO!"
Tears, you are so lovely. But this is not my world. I finally realiz
Love and Trust: Hika Part 5Chapter 5: Shadow
You still remember the graffiti streets of Berlin? I am running now, there is my home, my hometown. The place I know best. I jump from here to there. Searching for my old friends. But the truth is, I know none of them are there now. Because I left them alone. All alone. I'm such a bad girl, I know. While I'm jumping and praying that nothing will happen, someone pushes me down. But before I hit the street, two strong arms catch me and save me. Those red eyes. As red as blood. As a cherry. As vampire lips. Those sweet eyes. This can kill you if you look into them too long. I know who it is.
"You are good, Hika, but you know it is too dangerous to be running around in the middle of the night, don't you?"
"Of course I do. But it's fun. You taught me this. To be a...-"
"I didn't teach you how you can kill yourself."
He jumps. Gives me a little kiss and presses me into tears arms. We're running away. Leaving him and her behind. Thats our life. A life that you can not
Love and Trust: Hika Part 44th Chapter: Nali
"Run! Faster! Jump! High! Run, run, Nali!" Me and Nali were running. Away from those guys who called themselves police and the solider for right. There is no right, not in these streets in Berlin. Everyone has to fight for his own rights! Like me, Nali and Tears.
At my 16th birthday, the officer makes me and Tears official to two married people. Me 16 and Tears 18. That was just around that time when I found out that there is no way for me to be alive in a world like this. Not in those dark streets. I lost my only friend and was sure that I have to change things. Forget the dark-strange mask back at the 31th December 1990 and life my live like a little princess. Now I want to just show others how the world is. Is not a princess-prince-life in pink house, you know.
"Hika! Run! RUN!" I turn back and saw for the last time Tears bloody face, then fall down and everything turns black to me. I knew that this must be the end, for sure.
Be a good girl, just a good girl,
Love and Trust: Hika Part 33rd Chapter: Tears
"His name is Tears. You have to be nice to him. Aren't you a good girl?"
I hate and love him. Both were fake. I have to be like they want; I am a good girl, aren't I?
His name was Tears. He was 2 years older. Tears were a stupid name, I thought. I hate him because I must spend my time with him. But I loved him, because he was not like the others around me. By the time I spend with him, I asked myself, why the hours go so slowly and why the sky was still light. I wanted go back to the dark streets of Berlin. I want to feel the others pain. I wanted be by Ciel's side. I don't when it starts, when I forget Ciel and wanted just Tears heart, even everyone says it was already mine.
I hear some steps. When they come closer to my room, I start to pray for Ciel, that he is alright now, while I am here with this guy. "Hello Miss Hika. Is me, Tears, I wish you a nice day, how are you today?" "I am fine, sir Tears. I just wonder, I hope my friend is fine too. Don't you think tod
Love and Trust: Hika Part 22nd chapter: Rebels
Sound of music and wild sayings are now in the streets from Berlin. With graffiti at the walls and broken alcohol bottles. Hika, dont go outside alone, not at that dark place. Why nanny? Why? Dont be worry, nanny, I am with Ciel, and I am not alone!
His name was Ciel. He was around 4 or 5 years older than me. His hair was silver and his eyes red. He was one of the boys at the dark-graffiti streets in Berlin. He was my best friend. My only friend. Ciel always waited for me down at the street, because he knew that he couldnt come up. I hate him for this. It was not his fault, but I hate him, because he never tried to speak to my parents to let him in. Ciels eyes sparkled dangerously. I was sometimes so afraid that I run back home and hide myself behind nanny. Now I regret that I left him alone. Hika! You can not run like this around the street. You mother and nanny will be angry. Please stay her, Hika!&